In my 16 years in life, I’ve realized a lot of things, a lot of virtues, a lot of mistakes and most of all, a lot of regrets yet there is one thing that never really thwarted my mind until my only sister got to my Alma Mater. I maybe exaggerating but I really can’t help getting this feeling that I’m usually left out on acknowledgments whatever the hell I do? Is it really because I’m in the middle of 3 children? Or is it because, I’m the only one who they don’t seem to see? But wait, don’t get me wrong, I don’t want all the attention, I just want them to not treat me as someone who’s invisible.

There are a lot of sayings with regards to being a sort black sheep when being the middle child; a few of these include the “Middle Child Syndrome”, in which the middle child is the black sheep in the whole family (while the other two being perfectly sane and reasonable), the “Middle Child Being Left-out” in most cases in life then having different problems coping up in the long run and the “Bad Future with Middle Children” which is way self explanatory. Those few statements are implying that if you’re a middle child, you will fall whatever the hell you do. Perhaps, it depends in the of parents way of handling children of course, but when in the middle, there’s this feeling of getting a curse y’know and it’s not a good thing. Believe me, I’m a middle child (well you probably noticed that) and it’s hard to be among two people that constantly get attention. Anyway, have you ever wondered why a few, if not most (if not all) of the middle children have those kinds of problems stated above? Well, to give a bit of an insight, I’ll give you a glimpse of what happens in my life.

Ever since I was in Nursery, I’ve tried my very best to honor my parents in such a way that I don’t give a damn about me anymore, what’s for them, I give them. My sister and brother? I don’t really know. I’m not hating on my bro and sis, believe me, I love those guys but it’s just that, I think I’ve been giving way more effort in making them proud and stuff and yet they rarely notice my efforts. It’s like I have to gain a Cum Laude (it’s not impossible but damn is it hard!) before I totally get them to notice me! Another thing, my bro is a soon-to-be-engineer, a dream my father always wanted to achieve but couldn’t due to unforeseen circumstances and what the hell am I? A psychologist! A job that doesn’t have a clear future yet! (I’m sulking on Accountancy now but I’ll get to that soon) And now I’m guessing, the curse is true, that curse wherein I’m the black sheep and the 1st son/daughter will inherit the fortune & responsibility while the 3rd son/daughter will inherit the love & care…

Life in the middle is hard and as you can imagine, I go through a lot everyday to cope through all this but I guess once you’re used to it, being taken for granted won’t really get in your head. Sometimes, it won’t even affect you and all you’ll see yourself doing is living the dream of your parents without regret that you might have to maintain whatever reputation you have with them. Life in the middle is hard but it opens you to the fact that being neutral won’t get you nowhere, you have to prove yourself and be someone to be able to make it out alive.

Once before in a distant past

I thought that my love for a girl would last

I was wrong though; in the most sincerest of ways

For now I find myself, pleading her case.

Back then this girl was pure in my eyes,

But now I wonder why she always pries

Maybe perhaps she was deaf and mute?

Metaphorically speaking, I think she’s extremely demure!

For once I thought she was my true love,

Yet now I see that she may have been numb,

For she ignored the effort that my actions display

Head over heels, I’ll make no more mistakes.

So I recently tweeted in my twitter account that I’ll be posting a blog with regards to my 100th tweet which is about me “Wanting to Marry a BS Accountancy Graduate.” 

For starters, I don’t really know how this came about but let’s just say that a part of me wants to marry an accountancy graduate. Listed below is a few reasons why:

• I want to marry a girl that has at least the closest similarities to my mom and being an accountancy graduate definitely is close to my mom(since my mom’s an accountancy graduate duh.)
• I don’t want to marry a girl with the same course as me for unknown reasons
• I want someone in life who can totally balance money since I myself can’t.
• Accountancy students I know are awesome, if not okay.
• Back when I was in high school (except during the second half of my 4th year), I had this mission to be a CPA to fulfill my mom’s legacy.
• Currently, I’m dumbfounded by the fact I chose BS Psychology over BS Accountancy, well yeah I’m satisfied with Psychology but I just thought, was my reason for choosing Psychology that solid like my reason for being addicted to Accountancy back then? 

Anyway, those reasons are rather simple right? You probably are shruggin’ your shoulders right now saying… “No dude, you should’ve totally went to Accountancy!” but here I am, still studying BS Psychology in my crappy school. I can’t do anything to make a move as of late ‘cause I made a pact with my mom that I would graduate with my current course but hey, it would be totally nice to have a girl that would fulfill at least the dream of my mom :)