Recently, or rather lately as the title states, I have experienced this somewhat ludicrous feeling that I’m dying or about to die, at least. Yes, I may have been overreacting to that sickness I had and yes, I’m also stressfully stressed but why on Earth will I feel that way? And of all the times, why now?

In a weird way, even I don’t even know the answer myself. 

I mean, in the past years, I have experienced way more hardships than I experienced in these past couple of months but it seems as though these past couple of months have led me to think about the future and what it holds for me. For the first time in my life, I’ve gone from a guy who’s saved from extinction to a guy that is seemingly in the stocks, begging for mercy and just wishing for the restless torment to stop. I know that we got nothing to fear but fear itself but… I’m scared.

I’m scared of what my grades will be this semester after a disastrous four or five month stint in class. I’m scared of what lies in store in my lovelife, if there’s any (Lord, promise me you’ll give me babies, pwetty please). I’m scared of all the hate, the criticisms, the imperfections and all there is in-between those two and I’m finding it very difficult to stand up.

But listen, you can’t keep on sitting down and looking at those successful people. The pursuit of happiness doesn’t start a month from now, tomorrow or even later. It starts at this very moment. And though, albeit most of us are scared and most of us can’t stand standing up yet falling down a few minutes later due to criticism, remember that nothing came to those who didn’t try. For worrying will only get us so far. Worrying will just lead us to our own downfall. Worrying is worthless. 

So if you feel anxiety now, pull-back a bit and relax. Drink a cup of coffee or something. Clear your mind. Go out with your friends or better yet just go out. Start hoping again. That’s what I did. And I’m slowly and surely regaining my form again. 

I guess we all shouldn’t be scared, I mean, this is life. We must be responsible for our actions and we just gotta live with every moment we’ve got and be confident that there’s a world out there that’s destined for us. Hope my friends, believe.

Cheers ~ 

PS: Happy 300th post to me! The next celebratory post will be on my 500th post so it’ll take a while. Anyway, as promised, you’ll be getting posts with .gifs soon! Stick and stay for that. Taglish posts and a new theme shall also be in order! Yipee!

Figuring out what you were put on this Earth to do can sometimes be like putting together a jigsaw puzzle when the pieces are spread around the world. Some people don’t complete their puzzle because they often don’t have the patience, desire, or they’re just fearful. However, the five pieces needed to complete the puzzle of your life’s purpose are actually quite easy to find.

Here are the five easy pieces to piecing together your purpose in life.

1. Recognizing Your Talents and Passions

This is probably the easiest and most common way for people to discover their purpose in life. So we’ll start off with it.

Following you talents and passions will lead to fulfillment, happiness, and even money to pay the bills (or even a lot more). Natural born or acquired talents, it doesn’t matter; you were given them by someone or something for a reason.

To discover more about your passions and talents, think of:

- What makes you cry with joy.

- What makes you and others smile.

- What people sincerely say you’re good at.

- What makes you and others laugh.

- What keeps you up all night because you’re so fired up about it.

2. Look To Your Past

It’s difficult sometimes to reflect on our pasts. There are plenty of events I would like to erase from my memory, but I think it’s foolish to do so. Instead, we should use it to move us forward and to make sense of where we are now.

Looking to our pasts to get a sense of our purpose has its own puzzle pieces:

- What circumstances were born into?

Perhaps you were born into poverty. Then your purpose may be to rise above impoverished surroundings and to lead others by example.

- What major mistakes and vices did you parents battle?

Were they abusive, addicted to drugs/alcohol, or did they engage is something else destructive? Well your purpose is not to continue the cycle. You have to break free and again, lead by example.

- What have you failed at?

Failure should never be permanent. It’s only there to separate those who want something more than those who don’t. If a failure of something affected you so much that you couldn’t stop thinking about it, then your purpose is to get back in the game, approach it differently and succeed.

- Who affected you the most in a positive way?

Was it a teacher, author, actor, director, a president, or a local hero? If they changed your life, then perhaps you should carry on their mission as well.

3. There Three Purposes That Unite Us All:

1. Be as happy as possible.

2. Live life the way you desire.

3. Change the lives of others.

4. Leave the world a little better than when we were born into it.

And yes to all the negative Nancys and Neds: not everyone will fulfill these purposes, but everyone can.

4. Be Open To Multiple Purposes

Many of us have multiple purposes, but often we have one main mission in life, and then other smaller reasons for existing. Perhaps someone is supposed to be a great parent, but also change the world in another way.

Other times, two different purposes can form into a larger one. I’ve been told that I was pretty good at writing and I should think about turning it into a career, but I always brushed it off. One thing I always wanted to do was change the world. So I decided one day to just combine the two and change the world through my talent of writing.

Our purposes can also vary depending on our age. Commonly it’s materialistic in nature when we’re younger, but not so much when we get older.

This leads me to the fifth piece of the puzzle…

5. Find Out What Your Purpose Is Now

What you’re on this Earth to do today is more important than what your purpose later in life is. Today is guaranteed, tomorrow isn’t.

If you think your purpose it to share your art with the world, then start today! If you feel you’re supposed to be a social entrepreneur, then get going now! You may find something that’ll give your life meaning until the end.

We wait for the perfect moment, but it doesn’t exist. Concentrate on your purpose for today, tomorrow, next month, and for the next few years at the most. Life is now, not tomorrow.

(Source: lyved.com)

Over the course of a hard-fought life I’ve had (or so it seems), there is this one thing that I never wanted to always have. It starts with R and ends with Y and is above this post. And if you’re awesome enough (/wink), I doubt it doesn’t even take you 5 seconds to find that word! For those un-awesome people though, don’t worry you’ll be awesome too (well soon. LOL). Anyway, enough of the lame jokes, I’ll get to the chase and talk about responsibility which is a bad topic for Christmas yet becomes a good one (I think?) when you hear my views and story about it. 

I’m irresponsible. (What a bad start for a paragraph) It doesn’t look like it, in reallife nor in the internet world but quite frankly I am. I’m not a big fan of responsibility, I’m not a big fan of the perks of being responsibility and for God-Heaven’s sake I HATE THE PRESSURE OF BEING A HEAVY TASK. I had to caps-lock that line ‘cause I just really wanted to get that line out of my head. Anyway, responsibility for me is like carrying some kind of burden with probably a bit of reward in most cases. The rewards are often an added grade to your card, an added buck or two in your wallet and the occasional free slap in the face but the point is, the rewards are useful but having the responsibility of some heavy occasion, a whole class and maintaining reputation, those are hard stuff to do especially if you’re not used to the pressure and the burden to follow orders immediately and/or by force. Besides, I actually think that responsibility is a talent! 

How’d I say that?

Just recently, I’ve been tasked to collect funds for a group of people (my mates in my community service crap to be particular) for our soon-to-happen Christmas Party with a few out-of-school kids  and I must say, given that opportunity and recognition at first was an okay feeling at first but the enthusiasm for being the collector of the funds started to deteriorate when problems arise. Imagine getting called up to the office everyday for the next two days to be able to give a report as to who had already paid and who hasn’t! It’s truly a pain in the behind! I can’t even believe how people who are given a big responsibility ever begin to cope with such stress as to how to please the people around them (especially their bosses, or advisers for the matter.) ‘cause I’ve tried being responsible guys, and for me, it sucks. Maybe it really is a talent? Or maybe I just truly suck at it, OR maybe it’s just the holidays that’s why I’m a baby Snorlax! (Okay, enough random stuff)

Anyway, wishin’ y’all a happy holidays! Share yo blessings!

Many words naturally mean a lot of things. But a word which means a lot? That doesn’t really come by very often especially coming from a guy who doesn’t say it a lot. Yes, I know, I KNOW! It’s like I can never say NO to anyone but this word must’ve had some sort of hit to me ever since April 1,2011. A date wherein I started accepting reality, or was it? 

What does this “Don’t” mean in my life anyway?

This don’t word actually symbolizes the end. The end of trying to think I’m fit for a person, a situation, a commitment and so on. The end of trying to force myself to still sticking to the principles of making a promise and not breaking it. People change. Sometimes, you may not know it but in time, they’ll forget about what you did to them. They’ll forget the moments you spent, the stories you shared and the people you look up and disgust! So why bother yourself? Don’t. You’ll only bring pressure to yourself in being a perfect person. Everyone makes mistakes and everyone avoids mistakes so why force yourself on being a complete perfectionist? Why not just go with the flow then see how life plays out? Isn’t that a bit more exciting and less stressful than living your life with simple regrets from moments that can never be rebuked or remade ever again?

Promises are not made to be broken but take note that most promises have a corresponding shelf-life! Not all promises can be forever kept and forever followed for sometimes these promises will just be your burden from expanding yourself to the different horizons and thoughts of the world.

Don’t limit, pressure and deny yourself. There are a myriad of possibilities, promises, hopes, dreams and paths that await you. 

In my 16 years in life, I’ve realized a lot of things, a lot of virtues, a lot of mistakes and most of all, a lot of regrets yet there is one thing that never really thwarted my mind until my only sister got to my Alma Mater. I maybe exaggerating but I really can’t help getting this feeling that I’m usually left out on acknowledgments whatever the hell I do? Is it really because I’m in the middle of 3 children? Or is it because, I’m the only one who they don’t seem to see? But wait, don’t get me wrong, I don’t want all the attention, I just want them to not treat me as someone who’s invisible.

There are a lot of sayings with regards to being a sort black sheep when being the middle child; a few of these include the “Middle Child Syndrome”, in which the middle child is the black sheep in the whole family (while the other two being perfectly sane and reasonable), the “Middle Child Being Left-out” in most cases in life then having different problems coping up in the long run and the “Bad Future with Middle Children” which is way self explanatory. Those few statements are implying that if you’re a middle child, you will fall whatever the hell you do. Perhaps, it depends in the of parents way of handling children of course, but when in the middle, there’s this feeling of getting a curse y’know and it’s not a good thing. Believe me, I’m a middle child (well you probably noticed that) and it’s hard to be among two people that constantly get attention. Anyway, have you ever wondered why a few, if not most (if not all) of the middle children have those kinds of problems stated above? Well, to give a bit of an insight, I’ll give you a glimpse of what happens in my life.

Ever since I was in Nursery, I’ve tried my very best to honor my parents in such a way that I don’t give a damn about me anymore, what’s for them, I give them. My sister and brother? I don’t really know. I’m not hating on my bro and sis, believe me, I love those guys but it’s just that, I think I’ve been giving way more effort in making them proud and stuff and yet they rarely notice my efforts. It’s like I have to gain a Cum Laude (it’s not impossible but damn is it hard!) before I totally get them to notice me! Another thing, my bro is a soon-to-be-engineer, a dream my father always wanted to achieve but couldn’t due to unforeseen circumstances and what the hell am I? A psychologist! A job that doesn’t have a clear future yet! (I’m sulking on Accountancy now but I’ll get to that soon) And now I’m guessing, the curse is true, that curse wherein I’m the black sheep and the 1st son/daughter will inherit the fortune & responsibility while the 3rd son/daughter will inherit the love & care…

Life in the middle is hard and as you can imagine, I go through a lot everyday to cope through all this but I guess once you’re used to it, being taken for granted won’t really get in your head. Sometimes, it won’t even affect you and all you’ll see yourself doing is living the dream of your parents without regret that you might have to maintain whatever reputation you have with them. Life in the middle is hard but it opens you to the fact that being neutral won’t get you nowhere, you have to prove yourself and be someone to be able to make it out alive.